4.50 in the p.m. The afternoon sun “slanting” through the windows. It is always “slanting” – it never “sidles”. There are other things it doesn’t do. It doesn’t, for example, “palpitate”.

We were conscious of wrong-doing but went and drank ourselves stupid anyway. Someone would scrape us up off the sidewalk. Free of worries and cares all that remained was for us to lose faith, but it’s not easy to lose faith when you believe with all your heart. We admitted our confusion, but went and drank ourselves stupid anyway, just as the doctor suggested. He said the best way to forget is not to care. Only Jessica had the sense to see through his fog and understand his meaning.

from distance, but close up, it’s not the same

DIFFERENCE. DIFFERENT SENSE.

A page, and on it one’s life. Not your life. No, not that. (Art)

Thank you, I’m fine. But I miss you. I miss

everything, as if life now is everything and nothing.

It’s as if everything I knew has been forgotten,

but it’s impossible to forget. You walked this earth.

You touched this ground. You breathed this air.

I’m fine, but everything that made sense makes no sense

any longer. I am filled with emptiness. I breathe but die.

I REMEMBER

Looking for my poem

in the Sunday newspaper

It took a lot of looking

We were at Waterloo, it was a sunny day

THE OVERHEARD SPEECH OF CHINESE LEADERS

everyone is here

all is harmony

these three words

here is harmony

everyone is all

these three words

I understand that what you are looking for is Eternal Happiness, but

I sat on  my own, you were next to me, there are not so many people, we try to be good to animals, it’s nice to be in Nature, under these branches, on my own with you sitting next to me.

arm / strong / desire / panache

control / feel / mattress / bird

stumped / limb / weak / year